SFG 2022

Sitting at the airport waiting for the first plane on my way back to Seattle with a heart full of squishy love. Got to drum for my community raising stones. We gathered and we were home. Feeling incredibly grateful for the love and support this chosen family doles out. Also thankful for the opportunities for learning and growth this weekend provided. I am learning to love and accept love in healthier ways. Both this community and a partner are showing me that my boundaries are valid and give me the healthy open space to practice holding them.

On rising day I was in a lot of pain but I was there to drum for the stones going up. Instead of pushing through the pain I let some folks know what was going on and went to rest. I missed the first big stone and seed stone getting raised but I woke up from a nap feeling refreshed and got to witness the second seed stone and the second big stone go up. Had I "pushed through" I would not have been able to give my full presence, but by taking the time for me to rest I was able to be fully present for those second stones. As someone with a people pleasing history putting my needs first is a hard thing to practice, but the more I do it the more I see that putting my needs first in a context like this works out better for everyone.